LIFE is just a story we tell ourselves

I don’t mean to sound sexist or like a jerk. However, as women, we know that at some level to succeed, there’s got to be a lot of hee hawing bs we do just to get by. Would it be great to live in a solace we didn’t yeah of course. But a set of tits just sets you in a different category than men. No one cares as much about your strengths, your successes, and your goals. At some point, there’s a guy and even sometimes a woman at the top who only cares about how cute you are and if you’ll smile and hee haw at their bullshit. It would be nice to be measured by our brains, but. NO one loves a big girl, with a frown face and an IQ over a genius, and so then what? We’re left to half sexual harassment lawsuits (we lose) or frowning faces with no jobs, or last and most important, pissed off boyfriends who know you have to perk up your tits and smile just to get ahead. Shitty too as you get older because you know those days are numbered and what will you do then, perk them up for a job at Walmart when you used to run a million dollar business but got old and the botox ran out. While they can still slap dicks with the old guys at work, talk about their ragged wife, and you can wash their underwear for a living. Not to say there are not some world-changing amazing women out there, but truth for us average moms and stuff, what do we do when the looks wear off or the hee haas have to stop. Rely on a man who relentlessly rubs in our face that he handles the bills, that without him, we would be nothing. Do we sit, sisters, and just eat that? But GOd forbid we tell them FU for that because the punishment will come one form or another. IDK, maybe I’m just pissed and venting, or maybe I’m just telling the truth. Big girl panites and all can’t live with or can’t kill them (and no FBI its not Real) but honestly. Sometimes I just feel lost in it. If I let my boss slap my ass, I’m rich if I tell him to fuck off, my jobs in jeopardy. If I tell my dude there’s an ultimatum, and WHERE do I stand? I am the daughter of the most high God, but some days it sure as shit doesn’t feel that way !!